What goes better that International Potluck, hardware prototyping and...jam sessions? ^^
Monday, May 11, 2015
Friday, May 8, 2015
Friday Night Ramblings
In a city of more than one million people - how is it possible to feel lonely?
When I first moved to San Francisco, I felt lost and missed my friends and life in Europe so much, but these months I have worked hard to settle in and make a routine for myself - to fill each day with purpose and to keep moving forward.
This year, I have finally found the courage to take the leap of faith and start working on my own startup. I have networked and made friends and my life in SF has become more and more full. With my career finally on getting on track - I must admit have not felt lonely in a long time.
Well, that is until now. Somehow on this particular Friday night, I feel a bit sad, a bit defeated and a bit alone. It's like I forgot what I was missing until I started getting a small taste of what could be...but it all ended before it really begin. How is it that something so small, so early, could make me feel so much? Perhaps it's because I forgot what is it to be vulnerable, to be excited about seeing someone again and...to feel wanted. To see my reflection in the eyes of handsome, charming man. To the see the dark look of desire and to remember that I are not just than just my work - that I am still an attractive young woman.
...and this is how I was reminded that my "full" life was still missing something.
I have a great life. I am living the life that iv always wanted to, yet I have no one to share it with.
It's rare and far in-between that I meet someone that I have chemistry with. But every time I do, it is never the right time, never the right place. I am always leaving on a trip (or I am just plain leaving the country!), or my impatience and insecurities rear their ugly heads. I drive the person away or maybe I just pick the wrong person to begin with - Im not quite sure what goes catastrophically wrong.
Maybe I am so afraid of something real, that I cheapen the situation, I sabotage it. Or maybe I want something real so badly, that I rush things, I try to skip the process and hurry through but I only end up building a weak foundation that inevitably crumbles at the slightest provocation.
Will I learn from this? The next time I meet someone worth making time for, will I handle the situation correctly? Will my life slow down? Will I open up? Will I say the right things, do the right things?
Somewhere in the world, I believe I will find the person that can make me smile and brings butterflies to my stomach - someone that makes me remember what it feels like to be girl. Yes, I may be am a headstrong, ambitious and fiercely independent girl, but still a girl nevertheless. Yes, a girl that works in a male-dominated industry, that has to juggle business and engineering, but at the end of the day --- still wants to have someone to come home to, to cuddle with and to enjoy life with.
Until I find my...unicorn, it is better to be alone than to settle. I will keep living my life and build my company. I will be who I was always meant to be.
- Ran
When I first moved to San Francisco, I felt lost and missed my friends and life in Europe so much, but these months I have worked hard to settle in and make a routine for myself - to fill each day with purpose and to keep moving forward.
This year, I have finally found the courage to take the leap of faith and start working on my own startup. I have networked and made friends and my life in SF has become more and more full. With my career finally on getting on track - I must admit have not felt lonely in a long time.
Well, that is until now. Somehow on this particular Friday night, I feel a bit sad, a bit defeated and a bit alone. It's like I forgot what I was missing until I started getting a small taste of what could be...but it all ended before it really begin. How is it that something so small, so early, could make me feel so much? Perhaps it's because I forgot what is it to be vulnerable, to be excited about seeing someone again and...to feel wanted. To see my reflection in the eyes of handsome, charming man. To the see the dark look of desire and to remember that I are not just than just my work - that I am still an attractive young woman.
...and this is how I was reminded that my "full" life was still missing something.
I have a great life. I am living the life that iv always wanted to, yet I have no one to share it with.
It's rare and far in-between that I meet someone that I have chemistry with. But every time I do, it is never the right time, never the right place. I am always leaving on a trip (or I am just plain leaving the country!), or my impatience and insecurities rear their ugly heads. I drive the person away or maybe I just pick the wrong person to begin with - Im not quite sure what goes catastrophically wrong.
Maybe I am so afraid of something real, that I cheapen the situation, I sabotage it. Or maybe I want something real so badly, that I rush things, I try to skip the process and hurry through but I only end up building a weak foundation that inevitably crumbles at the slightest provocation.
Will I learn from this? The next time I meet someone worth making time for, will I handle the situation correctly? Will my life slow down? Will I open up? Will I say the right things, do the right things?
Somewhere in the world, I believe I will find the person that can make me smile and brings butterflies to my stomach - someone that makes me remember what it feels like to be girl. Yes, I may be am a headstrong, ambitious and fiercely independent girl, but still a girl nevertheless. Yes, a girl that works in a male-dominated industry, that has to juggle business and engineering, but at the end of the day --- still wants to have someone to come home to, to cuddle with and to enjoy life with.
Until I find my...unicorn, it is better to be alone than to settle. I will keep living my life and build my company. I will be who I was always meant to be.
- Ran
Monday, March 16, 2015
March Madness
We are only half-way through March and so far in the last two weeks, I have traveled San Francisco> Copenhagen>Aarhus>Göteborg>Borås and now back to Copenhagen. Whew! And to finish out the month I will be going to London>Nottingham>LA>Berlin>Copenhagen.
I love traveling, but even I, a seasoned Nomad in Heels is starting to lose my mind...just a little bit :X
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Learning about Textiles at the Swedish School of Textiles
Delicious Selmas!
My awesome Tour Guide!
Giving a talk on Hardware Trends at for IDA at Aarhus University ^^
Saturday, February 21, 2015
2015.
Can you believe it's 2015?!
Haha, I guess you can say it's been 2015 for a while, I mean it's even 2015 even by Chinese standards(Chinese New Years just passed ^^).
And of course I am WAY behind on my blog... so much as changed but so much is still the same. I am still traveling, still single, still trying to find my way. I am spending this winter in sunny San Francisco, and its very hot. Actually unbelievably hot. Having spent the last three winters in Chicago, Stockholm and Copenhagen, this balmy winter feels refreshing yet a bit...unnatural. Dare I say I miss the snow, the wind and dark nights of Northern Europe...or maybe I just miss my fabulous fur coats ;p
I have made three new years resolutions. Very clear, very simple ones.
1. Build my company
2. Find love
3. Get in shape
Sure, starting my company is utterly terrifying and having not worked out for two years due to traveling has made getting in shape a very daunting task- but of the three resolutions, it is the second one that is by far the hardest. Honestly, looking at my track record, I know that finding love in one short year is probably not in the cards for me. I mean - when have I even stood still long enough to get to know anyone, let alone develop feelings? But in making my resolution, I will at least open myself to try to feel "something". I promise I will allow myself to GO ON DATES. I am human afterall....
And even though this year just started, I will already be traveling shortly! I will be heading to Denmark and south Sweden and possibly Berlin in the next couple of days. After that I will be going straight to LA and then maybe Chicago?(unconfirmed). Things are about to get pretty crazy but as usual I am sure I will manage :)
I know its a bit late, but Happy 2015 and safe travels to everyone! I have a good feeling about this year! - An Optimistic Nomad -Ran
Haha, I guess you can say it's been 2015 for a while, I mean it's even 2015 even by Chinese standards(Chinese New Years just passed ^^).
And of course I am WAY behind on my blog... so much as changed but so much is still the same. I am still traveling, still single, still trying to find my way. I am spending this winter in sunny San Francisco, and its very hot. Actually unbelievably hot. Having spent the last three winters in Chicago, Stockholm and Copenhagen, this balmy winter feels refreshing yet a bit...unnatural. Dare I say I miss the snow, the wind and dark nights of Northern Europe...or maybe I just miss my fabulous fur coats ;p
I have made three new years resolutions. Very clear, very simple ones.
1. Build my company
2. Find love
3. Get in shape
Sure, starting my company is utterly terrifying and having not worked out for two years due to traveling has made getting in shape a very daunting task- but of the three resolutions, it is the second one that is by far the hardest. Honestly, looking at my track record, I know that finding love in one short year is probably not in the cards for me. I mean - when have I even stood still long enough to get to know anyone, let alone develop feelings? But in making my resolution, I will at least open myself to try to feel "something". I promise I will allow myself to GO ON DATES. I am human afterall....
And even though this year just started, I will already be traveling shortly! I will be heading to Denmark and south Sweden and possibly Berlin in the next couple of days. After that I will be going straight to LA and then maybe Chicago?(unconfirmed). Things are about to get pretty crazy but as usual I am sure I will manage :)
I know its a bit late, but Happy 2015 and safe travels to everyone! I have a good feeling about this year! - An Optimistic Nomad -Ran
San Francisco China Town
The day after Chinese New Years: Fire Crackers litter the streets
Happy Year of the Goat! 样年快乐！
Sunday, August 10, 2014
Stella Polaris - the biggest chill out festival in the world
Coming soon ---
http://www.stella-polaris.dk in in Frederiksberg Have.
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